her blasphemous thoughts

The first two exams were fine…I wish I had put in more effort though…But it doesn’t seem like ill be in the bottom of the class.

Econometrics: Err was ok yar.not so bad…There was a 38 mark easy question that might save my life and the first question was easy too…I din complete around 15/80 which is scary…I dunno how it will go!!yeeps

Marketing:Was fine..the mcqs i studied for some 30 of them…were quite ok….but some that i didnt study for seemed really alien to me…The essay questions were easy but i think i was unstructured and disorganised in my writing style…*Fingers crossed*. Might S/U it if it screws my CAP.

Exams to go

5th May: CUlture and Society:Sociology(Sucky module.)

6th May: MacroEconomics 2(MY hopeful subject)

7th May: Labour Economics(V V Difficult…its only a class of 97!)

Gosh pray hard for me guys im kinda scared…ill get back to studying macro…see ya laterz…

Buzz me after the seventh if you guys wanna hang out:)

My heart has turned into a piece of rock …it hardens the more I cry…

These tears aren’t bad as I thought they would be… Each tear is my amour from this ruthless world…

My skin is hardened….My sensitivity is dissolved…My humanity is bidding its last goodbyes…

Injustice is something I have to live with…In knowing so is my wisdom…

Apathy is the best emotion…In knowing so is my wisdom

Tolerance is a virtue but do not expect to be tolerated….In knowing so is my wisdom…

Wise is that man who begins his life with meaningful compassion and optimism to seek an end as a meaningless speck of dust!!

So we call ourselves civilised beings,but, find ourselves in an uncntrollable state when a woman wears unislamic clothing…and is it our fault???absolutely not..a woman withoout a hijab is equivalent to a piece of raw meat on the street… These were the words of a ridicoulous Mullah in australia..

I interogated many muslim men/women on why Hijab? why burkha? One man wrote on his blog that women are constricted to the domestic sphere which she nutures and she is not public property..A woman in immodest clothing becomes public property..A question id like t raise to this person is that.. in trying to liberate women from being seen as objects(which infact is the v nobel cause of the hijab) arent you yourself treating her as an object??? why this monopoly on her body??

Other arguments is that it protects a woman’s modesty …Well, mosdesty is a subjective concept isnt it? I would be considered rather immodest with a pair of jeans in pakistan, whilst the same pair of jeans would be considered a decent peice of casual clothing in singapore..

The follwoing quranic verse is the reaosn why muslim women wer veils/hijab/burkha:

“And say to the believing women that they should lower their gaze and guard their modesty; that they should not display their beauty and ornaments except what must ordinarily appear therof; that they should draw their veils over their bosoms and not display their beauty except to their husbands, their fathers, their husbands’ fathers, their sons, their husbands’ sons, their brothers, or their brothers’ sons or their sisters’ sons, or their women or the servants whom their right hands possess, or male servants free of physical needs, or small children who have no sense of the shame of sex, and that they should not strike their feet in order to draw attention to their hidden ornaments. And O you Believers, turn you all together towards Allah, that you may attain Bliss.” (Quran 24:31).

A lot of muslim scholars have literally interpreted this verse as "wearing veils" . But one is of the opinion that if at alll these are god’s words, if ou lead a fairly modest life wearing clothing thats considered decent in a particular geaographic region, dress modestly with little decoration/make-up, and hold yourself with dignity you would do justice o this verse…ah well!! No offence to believers…As a kafir im not even allowed to comment…but blind faith is of no good…it is essential to interogate and investigate..IM sorry if i offended any beleiver!

i feel misery breathing under my neck…I shoo her away…and she returns with a cackle and an evil grin…a grin assuring me that she wouldnt leave me so easily…
I get frustrated but i am game for this naughty hide n seek…
I smile; acting oblivious to her game… hoping that my “blurrness” covers for my fear that i might just lose this game..
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And there!!!!!!!PEEK A BOO!!!! IVE FOUND YOU!!AND NOTHING IS GONNA BE THE SAME AGAIN!!MUAHAHAH!!!

It is a shameful feeling when you realise how much you’ve neglected the people who’ve lived their lives for you….Who live for you and smile because you breathe….

Let this valentine’s day be dedicated to those special people I call :My Family…When you cry over some shallow relationship or something that was never fated…PUsh back those tears and smile because there is a woman who kept you in for nine months,who bore hours of labor pain, woke up at night to feed you and change your diapers, Taught you your ABCs…..

Smile because there was a man in your life,who taught you how to cycle, who taught you to be strong, who taught you the way s of life…A man so dedicated who worked hours of overtime just so hat you could ge that favourite toy of yours…

This isnt the best way to get over a past relationship…I think Im turning into a schidzophrenic.I talk to him and make beleive he is around..and feel the emptinees filled by something imaginary…

Its so weird….Sigh!

Trodding down the 2007 lane and bidding my goodbyes to the misery i cant even begin to explain how excited i feel about 2008..

A fresh start, a new birth of a hopefully changed human being…a chance to make resolutions and optimistically beleive that  they will be kept, A chance to dream of a perfect GPA and a chance to dream away the jerk magnets from my life…

Thinking about it, every year is like a perfect castle made with a pack of cards….As months pass by a layers of the castle falls apart…If you dont rebuilt your castle again and agin and get too tored and weary on the way  you get reduced to nothing by the end the year…

Yes this is the inevitable rat race world we live in…January 1st will be the day everything will be perfect but it’s upto your resillince , strength and belief to keep it that way…Nobody said it wouldn’t take effort…But the journey would be worthwhile

Heres wishing all of you loads of strength,love and focus to salvage your pack of cards in teh year 2008…May all of you have a very fruitful year ahead!

I dunno what more to say than Im chronically depressed..No its not a silly boy or anything at all to do with him…I just cry so easily and I wonder why people around me dont realise that although i love them but I need some space…Not to invade it by yelling at me..IM no dog or even if i was I wouldnt expect to be treated that way..Just because I dont argue doesn’t mean i have nothing to refute in your long winded yell..It just means I want you to get over and done with your yell and want you to disappear off my face..

A million people make judgements because thats easy for them to do so..Only you know why you do what you do…Only you know what you want from your life…

oh well…Three papers down , two more to go…

This sem was deplorable…I didn’t work hard, didn’t focus and have no right to complain…So I shall not do so…

I just feel that exams are pretty much an imitation of life…NO matter how depressed or sorrowful you are, you just can’t escape from life/exams….Your attitude towards an exam/life counts to a very large extent on how it will go.

I have never lost myself in grades and neither have I drowned myself in a occean of defeat.I have always studied because I wanted to learn, however idealistic that sounds ,but ,I alway s use exams as a gauge of how much I know and a signal to how much more I should know.I sure have to re-read my stuff this holidays…go beyond tutorials and lectures and actually learn something instead of coming out of a university with a degree equivalent to toilet-paper

Having said that, I shall hope for the "sun to shine"(As put by Vengky) " After this gloomy day"( As put by Vengky…NUS trains us in giving due credits so its kinda a habit)

Ever since I’ve had innumerable debates over the issue of religion;I’ve come to take deep interest in it.Religion per say doesn’t interest me, but the monochromatic view of religion is what sets me thinking about it.

DISCLAIMER:

I’m not putting forth any opinion of whether whats said in  the quran/Bible/any other holy book is right or wrong(I have very little knowledge in that area to formulate such opinions). Any such interepretation is purely the reader’s choice and not the blogger’s business !

A few thoughts:

Could it be that religion is a natural accompaniment with civilization? Did governments/rulers enforced civility and solidarity through relgion…?Can it be argued that indoctrination/spread of religion is in many ways comparable to indoctrination of patriotic/nationalistic sentiments.

The reason for such a hypothesis have been because of certain observations by me:

1) How is it that nomadic people had no religion..? How is it that it took over 1000 years for God to wake up from his slumber and make his revealations?

2)What about the millions who can’t read/write in the world…? why does religion take such an elitist form ?In cetrain counrtries it even gave rise to an elitist system like the caste system/The system of the Pope.

3) Why does religion take such an unnaturally monochromatic form. Most religions claim to have answers to everything and a black and a white answer to every puzzle in humanity…But why are the grey shades so ruthelessly ignored???